I am a clinical psychology doctoral candidate.
The only thing that I have left to complete before I am cleared for graduation is for me to do one year of a pre-doctoral internship.
I applied for some last year and did not get one of the ones I wanted. I decided to take another year - this year - to develop my skills and curriculum vitae so as to be a stronger applicant when I reapply this year.
This year:
I applied to >20 sites.
I received 4 offers to interview.
I did not match to an internship.
I found out Friday morning, the 25th.
My birthday was the 24th.
Very disappointing result.
Now what? I mean, I still need an internship for next year because I am going to graduate May/June 2012. No. Matter. What.
So after the results were posted, the matching system released they also released a list of internship placements that didn't get all the interns they needed. So I'm applying to a great and very many of these placements. I will know if I get one of these placements on March 28th, a Monday morning. The Monday morning, in fact, following my bachelorette weekend.
Hah.
Even so, I could -again - not match through this national system.
Thus, I have already applied for a variety of internships through the California system.
For those who aren't already familiar with this process - and even many who are - it's a convoluted and very involved process that essentially involves gobs of stress and uncertainty.
I say all this mostly to say that this result, among other things, means that I - and thus, Chris, as well - am still in limbo. Past these next 12 weeks, I have no clue as to where I will be living or what I will be doing next year.
Possible scenarios:
(1) Chris and I live together in the Bay Area while I work at UC Davis earning about $25K
(2) I live in Zephyrhills, Florida (very near my Dad's family) and earn $39K working at a corrections facility there; Chris tries to transfer
(3) I live in places with no Southwest Airport, like Podunk, Indiana
(4) I live in Los Angeles earning $0 (not a typo); Chris tries to transfer
And many, many other iterations of similar living arrangements, types of work, places to live, and income levels.
I could earn nothing all the way up to the $39K. I could be in the Bay, in San Diego, Texas, Florida, Ohio, New York....anywhere. I could work at a university, corrections facility, community mental health center, or more. Chris and I could live together full-time, part-time, or not at all on other sides of the country.
Oooh! Also, I could start as early at July 1st, or as late as September 1st.
We'll see.
I must have used that phrase about a katrillion-jillion times during this whole internship process.
And yet....
it's true.
And will be for at least four more weeks.
Oh golly.
Four weeks from today is the second judgement day and I have no earthly clue how it will be.
And also this other little thing where I'm getting married in 82 days.
Wish me luck!!
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