I am a clinical psychology doctoral candidate.
The only thing that I have left to complete before I am cleared for graduation is for me to do one year of a pre-doctoral internship.
I applied for some last year and did not get one of the ones I wanted. I decided to take another year - this year - to develop my skills and curriculum vitae so as to be a stronger applicant when I reapply this year.
I applied to >20 sites.
I received 4 offers to interview.
I did not match to an internship.
I found out Friday morning, the 25th.
My birthday was the 24th.
Very disappointing result.
Now what? I mean, I still need an internship for next year because I am going to graduate May/June 2012. No. Matter. What.
So after the results were posted, the matching system released they also released a list of internship placements that didn't get all the interns they needed. So I'm applying to a great and very many of these placements. I will know if I get one of these placements on March 28th, a Monday morning. The Monday morning, in fact, following my bachelorette weekend.
Even so, I could -again - not match through this national system.
Thus, I have already applied for a variety of internships through the California system.
For those who aren't already familiar with this process - and even many who are - it's a convoluted and very involved process that essentially involves gobs of stress and uncertainty.
I say all this mostly to say that this result, among other things, means that I - and thus, Chris, as well - am still in limbo. Past these next 12 weeks, I have no clue as to where I will be living or what I will be doing next year.
(1) Chris and I live together in the Bay Area while I work at UC Davis earning about $25K
(2) I live in Zephyrhills, Florida (very near my Dad's family) and earn $39K working at a corrections facility there; Chris tries to transfer
(3) I live in places with no Southwest Airport, like Podunk, Indiana
(4) I live in Los Angeles earning $0 (not a typo); Chris tries to transfer
And many, many other iterations of similar living arrangements, types of work, places to live, and income levels.
I could earn nothing all the way up to the $39K. I could be in the Bay, in San Diego, Texas, Florida, Ohio, New York....anywhere. I could work at a university, corrections facility, community mental health center, or more. Chris and I could live together full-time, part-time, or not at all on other sides of the country.
Oooh! Also, I could start as early at July 1st, or as late as September 1st.
I must have used that phrase about a katrillion-jillion times during this whole internship process.
And will be for at least four more weeks.
Four weeks from today is the second judgement day and I have no earthly clue how it will be.
And also this other little thing where I'm getting married in 82 days.
Wish me luck!!